the anticipation of nostalgia

have you ever felt like you missed something while it was happening?

like

you knew

it was

it.

something you would remember forever

something you would miss always.

but the anticipation of this nostalgia

pervading

as the event occurred.

an invaluable piece of gold

shimmering

but ungraspable?

feeling the pain of longing

when you should be happy

now?

already aware of the transience of experience

the transience of life

transience.

unable to just be

consumed by this anticipated nostalgia

of this present moment perceived through your future angst

you somewhat detach from yourself and reality.

the feeling of “if only I was here”

but

the thing is

you are there.